In the next four or five days, I must:

- finish a 12-page paper (due 12/9)
- revise notes to turn in with that 12-page paper
- write another 1800-word paper(due 12/11)
- write two essays for a take-home final examination (due 12/11)
- study for my Chinese final examination (12/8)
- write an essay for that same examination
- go to a professor's house for a get-together (12/5)
- decide what the hell I am going to do with my life

And try to find time to sleep and such.

This semester is a lot worse than I thought it would be, but my grades haven't suffered as of yet. I just hope I can pull out a good final paper in all of my classes.

Message in my inbox this morning:

Plan now for your retirement.

I wonder if my bank is trying to tell me something.

I think it's great that Nakata tacked on "Adventure" to the end of Morex3 because he thought it'd make a good "thanks for listening to the end" song in the midst of his maniac music. x] Not that I've been looping it alone and not every other song on that album anyway, but!

Back to studying the Dao, yo.

Maybe I'll give birth to my xiantai by tomorrow.

早く目が覚めた今日の　髪をなでる風
キミのことがぼんやりと　浮かぶ雲みたいだね
空か高くなってきて　肌寒い空気
キミは何を思うの？一人考えていた

hayaku me ga sameta kyou no kami o naderu kaze
KIMI no koto ga bonyari to ukabu kumo mitai da ne
sora ka takakunattekite hada samui kuuki
KIMI wa nani o omou no? hitori kangaeteita

☆もうすこしの勇気があれば
叶うかもしれないよね
だけど　もしかしたらって
距離は　平行線
一番大事な気持ちを
後回しにしてきたね
２つに分かれた自分
くっつけるための願い

mou sukoshi no yuuki ga areba
kanau kamoshirenai yo ne
dakedo moshikashitara tte
kyouri wa heikousen
ichiban daiji na kimochi o
atomawashi ni shitekita ne
futatsu ni wakareta jibun
kuttsukeru tame no negai

長く眠れた今日の　心地よい風に
のせて歌う鼻歌　　ラララ　ラララ　ラララ
空が高くなってきて　肌寒い夜に
キミは何を思うの？一人考えていた

nagaku nemureta kyou no kokochiyoi kaze ni
nosete utau hanauta RARARA RARARA　RARARA
sora ga takakunattekite hada samui yoru ni
KIMI wa nani o omou no? hitori kangaeteita

☆Repeat

Dear piece of white trash who stood in front of my cousin and blocked her view at the Butch Walker concert last night at The Loft:

1) Please stop dancing. You have absolutely no rhythm, not even on offbeats. :D
2) Being rude to a person half your height does not make you a bigger or better person.
3) Don't bring your boyfriend who dislikes an artist to that artist's concert because he's just going to be on his Blackberry the whole time.
4) Nice to know you didn't know the lyrics to any of the songs.
5) Actually, along that same thread - it's not okay to yell loudly with your friends during a piano ballad (or any other song) at a small, intimate show. You'd think the load of people telling you and your idiotic friends to shut up would get that point across to you.
6) Oh yeah, and you really should stop getting so intoxicated that you spill your beer on people.

Just so you know, Butch Walker fans don't like your kind.

Absolutely no love from me!

(PS: It was otherwise an absolutely brilliant show. ♥ And more about yesterday later - it was a really fantastic day.)

I am so, so lazy but I decided to transcribe this anyway because I have apparently somehow finished my work for the day.

Also, random fact thanks to my unedited crappy LJ profile - I've made 701 entries in this journal. Woo.

( Dream Fighter )

Oh my God this french vanilla coffee is so good.

So good~

I keep waking up early because of the time change, and I guess it's a good thing because I have time to lounge around and watch TV. Apparently voting lines are around the block everywhere this morning - I suppose I'm lucky because I got to vote via absentee ballot.

I wish it was already the holiday season, and not in the "all department stores have Christmas stuff everywhere" way because that's already happened anyway.

Also, I can't believe Tetsuya Komuro got arrested for fraud. What a crazy piece of news, especially because globe was due to make a comeback.

Anyway, time to drink more coffee. ♥

01.( TEN )
02.( can't stop the DISCO )
03.( climb up to the top )
04.( SUPER MUSIC MAKER(SA'08S / A mix) )
05.( mysterious )
06.( change my life )
07.( LOVE MAIL )
08.( A token of love )
09.( TRUE )
10.( flower )
11.( ONE )

If I find these re-posted without permission I might have to kick somebody.

It's study time~.

I don't know what I did to my legs but I'm sore from my ankles to my thighs like I ran a marathon for days.

I'm walking hunched over like an old lady. Instant costume!

Happy Halloween~.

Going home today for three days, yay~. I will probably be jamming to "GAME" on the highway again. For some reason that CD never gets old to sing to.

Our Halloween pumpkin pie party was epic fun, even though it didn't involve a haunted house in the end. I started sneezing when I came home from the cat dander, but while I was at the apartment there was no problem. I am convinced now, however, that all cute guys really do live far away. Not going to elaborate on that point, but yes.

On a more serious note, I still don't know what to do with my future. I have basically decided against impulse-applying to JET because it's just not appropriate for me in terms of all sorts of things (locations, intellectual level, etc) but I have no idea what to do in the meantime.

I bought graduation things two days ago. Having three tassels hanging off my head (one for each major and an honors tassel) is a little much, but I think it'll work out okay. The caps give you absolutely terrible hat hair, though.

Um... I love coffee. That is all.

I forgot to post this the day before yesterday.

I should be asleep, but I'm a little pumped because I just knocked 1600 words out of a paper I've got to finish before I go back to Savannah for the upcoming weekend. Today was a virtual waste of time otherwise. I spent the morning chatting with Sasaki, Elise, Johnathan, and Tony about really random humorous things, including places our cats have gone to the bathroom that we didn't particularly like. Afterwards, I went to lunch with Ken at Five Star Day and then we had tea at a coffee shop. It's pretty fun talking with him, because he's done a lot and seen a lot I haven't yet. I really feel like the reason a majority of my friends are older is because of that - I have no lofty ideals or delusions that my life is going to be anything but reality, and no matter how much I daydream I can't change the fact that I have to grow up. I am growing up, in my own way. And I've always had that serious drive going in the back of my mind. That's the main reason I can't settle for anything less than what I know will help me move forward in life.

Also, Ken's new baby is adorable. Happy 1st month, Kenta-kun. ♥! He got some lucky red eggs from the Chinese department for the occasion.

After lunch I ran into Dr. Yi, who seriously lamented the fact that I am not planning on going to graduate school immediately (she gave me sad face, it wasn't very encouraging.) Then I came back and went with Christine to the vintage store so she could buy an impulse vintage Gucci bag. She even ( made me take a picture with it to prove it would even look cute on me. )

I still don't think I believe her.

I got a package in the mail with some new dresses from my mom last week, but I didn't take pictures of them. I did, however, get a new pair of shoes and a sweater last week, after a long trial of driving in the rain and trying to find things that fit me properly. Luckily, the picture I took of myself in the sweater was before the wind and the new cleanser from my dermatologist dried my skin up like a desert. D:

( Material things that really don't matter but fill up time. )

I'm so wired right now. I think I should attempt to sleep before I wake up at 5AM randomly wondering what the hell happened to me.

I am really looking forward to Wednesday. We're having a little Halloween get-together.

I'm so sleepy for some reason. I want to curl up into a ball on my bed and not wake up until Monday, but I have some plans tomorrow so that's basically an impossibility. Also finally hitting up the dermatologist on Monday because I'm worried in a vain way about my skin. Anytime I shift locations it's like my skin protests, and I want a new skincare regimen.

Today was a bore. I didn't bother to leave the apartment because there was a huge crowd for homecoming outside, so I spent the day gaming and exercising. I'm a little sore from the working out and I have this weird feeling in my upper thigh. It's kind of a wet feeling, if that's the best way to describe it. I'm sure it's just muscle strain, but it's aggravating.

I'm torn as to whether or not I'm going to go shopping tomorrow - I ended up going everywhere and anywhere on Friday in the afternoon, and I didn't find anything. And that was after driving in the rain. Luckily, my dirty car appreciated the water (♥), but it really was a pain in the backside. People in this town drive like idiots when it's sunny, and when it's raining they act like they've never seen a storm cloud in their lives. I counted four wrecks on the way to the (hopeless) mall alone. I really, really miss shopping in Japan. I miss clothes that fit me properly, and I miss the style of everything. I end up scouring the racks at any given store for a good hour and a half before I realize I'm not going to find anything, and it's a little tiring. I found one dress the entire time I was gone, and it was two sizes too big and hung on me like a curtain. At least I know my size hasn't gone up since I left, but it was really irritating. I might try again tomorrow - or maybe not, if I'm feeling lazy enough. We'll see~.

My cousin just passed the test for her Master's Degree in Speech Pathology, so she sent me an enthusiastic text a few hours ago. She told me we'd party - and party we will, next weekend - I just hope her idea of party doesn't involve alcohol. Regardless, I decided yesterday that I'm definitely going back to Savannah from October 30 - November 2nd. At the very least, I'll be at my parents' house to see some cute kids running around in their costumes. I have these fond memories of my Dad playing creepy harpsichord music on the surround sound stereo and sitting in a lawn chair in the front yard with a demon mask on when I was a kid. It makes me nostalgic for the good old days when I dressed up as (insert Disney princess here) and was scared of things I thought were real but really weren't.

Ah, those were the days. I wish a pumpkin full of candy and tired feet by the end of the night were still all I needed to be content.

Am I a Steph dreaming I am a cupcake
or a cupcake dreaming I am a Steph?

My brain is full of tao.

This weekend has been really almost too productive - it's kind of creepy. I actually studied for the first time in what has been forever. And I do mean forever. Like since high school forever.

Tomorrow is a busy day and I'm done studying for the evening, so it's time to lay in bed and watch Planet Earth.

I bought a dress today.

The promo PV for MORE! MORE! MORE! is for "JUMPER."

I don't know why this is so exciting at 8AM in the morning, but somehow it is.

Edit: I want to go to Nakata, Taku, and TOWA TEI's Halloween Party. :(

re: coffee girl

surasshu (7:59:27 PM): was she crying?
pinkribboncandy (7:59:35 PM): no
pinkribboncandy (7:59:35 PM): D:
surasshu (7:59:53 PM): that's the only reason i can think you'd want to order that, you just broke up with someone and want to have something really gluttonous

Strange days are my favorite.

There were fine individuals in very smart looking suits situated all around the bus stops passing out lovely little green Bibles this morning. I took the first one I was offered and smiled at the rest, but my imagination was wandering all over the place. For some reason, I started thinking that they looked very similar to those kinds of people you see in movies about undercover agents. It played out in my mind something to the effect of them being alien secret agents.

I can't blame the coffee, either, because I hadn't had any before I got on the bus. I later overdosed on two large, plain coffees, but at least my heart didn't start racing. When I got to the coffee shop I saw this ridiculously normal looking girl ordering a specialty drink - the kind with lots of milk and sugary things with whipped cream on top. While I watched, she put 10-12 packets of sweetener on top of the whipped cream, stirred, and walked away. I felt kind of ill after that, but I went on my merry way regardless. I used to think I had a sweet tooth, but my love of cupcakes is nothing compared to that.

Now that I'm actually updating about life again I really feel like the rhythm of my writing is different. Writing lyrics and poetry is still the same, but I seem to be unable to come up with any style regarding real events that happen in my life. I guess that would be the best kind of evidence for being uninteresting and having a dull existence.

I probably just need time to be alone with my thoughts again. Usually if I make an effort I can really connect to what I'm feeling and things come out with a little more lucidity.

Or maybe I'm just getting older. It's hard to tell the difference between feeling stifled and growing up sometimes.

Oh yeah, dragonkiri, I think you'd dig the new Plastic Tree album.

Nail polish is such a fickle thing for me. I think I choose colors by my mood.

So today is a pink day, rather than a Mustang red day, and tomorrow I may do a complete 180 and go back to black. I have a jumpy personality lately.

My mom keeps telling me I can't spend money the way I did in Japan, and it's true, but it's not my fault there are things to be buying. If I don't get the capsule archive I might cry or something. I was thinking about it with slashman yesterday, and I guess it was in high school, 2003, when I first discovered them, but I never thought it'd turn into what it has turned into - I really like watching things I love become popular, but at the same time it's almost a bittersweet feeling because it means the atmosphere surrounding them has changed.

It's cool, in any case. I've been watching the news all morning and it's nothing but depressing, so I think I'm gonna play games instead of studying like I should.

The new DSi looks ridiculous. Who needs two cameras? Is it a DS for camwhores or something?

More coffee time!

Christine went home for the weekend to get her nails done and her hair done before she goes to her cousin's wedding, so I'm sitting around thinking about studying religion and really doing nothing. I was actually put off by the fact that I might need to even walk to my car to get more bottled water, but then I realized I had a whole second gallon in the fridge. In other words, it's a weekend to be lazy and a weekend I want to be lazy.

Yasunori Mitsuda actually deleted his blog archive this week, which made me a little sad. I always liked to go back and look at it, even when he stopped updating, just because he had those crazy-cute entries about his stuffed frog and things like that. I think growing up in the blog culture has made me a bit spoiled, but that's neither here nor there. Speaking of game-related things, I'm excited about Chrono Trigger DS and the new sequel to Another Code for the Wii. I also really want to be playing something right now, but I've finished all the games I brought to school with me and there's nothing else I really particularly want to buy at the moment so there's no point.

I had a feeling October would be a very, very good month, but I'm feeling uneasy for no reason at the moment, so maybe it won't be? Who knows. I'm going to go broke next month buying the new capsule album (11/19), the new Perfume single (11/19), and Suzuki Ami's new album (11/12) along with going to concerts and everything, so that'll be fun. I guess I should enjoy only having to buy food while it lasts, but I do want to buy a few magazines in a week or so.

This entry is boring because life is pretty much boring right now. Meh.



I have an urge to icon this.

I need this for life!